Lost

I don’t know if you’re pushing me away or pulling me closer
I don’t know where I stand
I don’t know what you want from me
Or if you care at all

Your words lash out and hurt
Then lovingly draw me in
I don’t know what you want from me
Do you want this to end

Don’t turn tables
Or place this on me
Just come out and tell me
What it is you want

I can’t read minds
I don’t know where I stand
Are you pushing me away
Or are you going to finally let me in

You Are The One

I love you so much i can't believe its real, my love for you i don't want to conceal, i don't know if others will understand, because they don't think this relationship will stand, but i know that we have a bond that can't be broken, my love will not be unspoken, through the good times, the hard times, you will see my love truly shine, not just sometimes, but all through the day, you're beautiful in every way, you are the one i love, there is none above...

Your are special

Your special in every little way,
I try to tell you this everyday,
You do everything for us,
Even if we have to ride the bus,

Your there for us all the time,
And give us every single dime,
We care about you so much,
And love your hearts touch,

I wish we could always be together,
But sadly we wont last forever,
I don't know how I can repay you,
I tell you this cause its true,

Your something we can all adore,
Your something worth fighting for,
I wish I didn't cause you any pain,
Because you still got so much to gain,

I love the way you care,
Without you everyone bare,
I write this out of love,
You remind me of the prettiest white dove,

You remind me of the prettiest flower,
You have so much exquisite power,
Your special in every little way,
I try to tell you this everyday...

people walk in

Time goes by a lot slower
when you miss
the one you love.

Sometimes, no matter
how much faith we have,
we lose people.
But you never forget them.
And sometimes,
it's those memories
that give us the strength to go on.

Absence from whom
we love is worse than death,
and frustrates
hope severer than despair.

As contraries are
known by contraries,
so is the delight of presence
best known by the
torments of absence.

I miss you a little,
I guess you could say,
a little too much,
a little too often,
and a little more each day.

A goodbye isn't painful
unless you're never going
to say hello again.

A lot of people walk in

Missing You

You are the one who I always think,
I even see your face everytime I blink.
I really don't know why am I acting like this,
All I know that it is you who I miss.

When I think about you, my eyes seemed to glow,
When I dream of you, I hoped for no tomorrow.
To be with you right now is what I've wished
`Coz it is really you whom my heart has missed.

I believe that we will be together sooner or later.
How I hope that the time and day will pass faster
So that I'll be with you and hug you tight,
And never let go of you with all my might.

`Coz I really miss you and that's is true.

DO I HAVE TO CRY?

When in Spring the flowers bloom,
And everything is born anew,
Why do I have to cry?
I could be sharing this beauty with you...
Why, oh why do I have to sigh?

When the sun in the Summer noon,
Shines so brightly upon the land,
Why do I have to cry?
I could be holding you by the hand...
Why, oh why do I have to sigh?

Winds blow tenderly in Autumn,
And the leaves so gently fall,
Why do I have to cry?
I know we could have had it all...
Why, oh why do I have to sigh?

Cold outside in Winter evenings,
Colder here within my heart,
Why do I have to cry?
I never wanted us to be appart...
Why, oh why do I have to sigh?

just see.

Oh hold me close just one more time
Your perfect touch, your lips on mine
because Perfect things- they never last
We steal our moments, oh so fast.

Come with me, let's run away
Hide awhile and there we'll stay.
Cuddle close and hold me tight
In your arms the world is right.

Leaning near, you steal a kiss
My blushing cheeks tell all of this
Your laugh, so sweet, as you watch me.
Oh, we'll love forever...
they'll just see.

MY LOVE FOR YOU I CAN'T IGNORE

My love for you I can't ignore;
My heart I need not let explore.
For one day my darling in time you will see.
Your love for me, it was meant to be.
Until that day I vow unto you;
To love you, be faithful and always be true.
Please my Love, I'll do the right thing.
Never let go, hold me under you're wing.
For I have no desire to venture away;
I'll never let go, I'm here to stay.
So as long as you love me, one day you'll well know.
Our love for each other, in time it will grow.

My butterfly

Your butterfly has truly emerged.
Bright, beautiful, symmetrical.
Blazing with color.
Pinks for our love.
Deep reds for our hearts,
Our passions, our lips.
Yellows for our glow, our Light,
Our Spirits, our beautiful Sun.
Blues for our clear skies,
Our peace, our calm, your eyes.
Greens for our earth, our plants,
Our nature that surrounds
Our beautiful little bridge
That you built.
With hearts bonded and melted,
With pure love and sexiness,
With sheer poetry and excitement
Come fly with me.

BELIEVE IN YOUR HEART

Believe in your heart that
something wonderful is about to happen.
Love your life.
Believe in your own powers,
and your own potential,
and in your own innate goodness.
Wake every morning
with the awe of just being alive.
Discover each day the magnificent,
awesome beauty in the world.
Explore and embrace life in yourself
and in everyone you see each day.
Reach within to find your own specialness.
Amaze yourself and rouse those around you
to the potential of each new day.
Don't be afraid to admit
that you are less than perfect;
this is the essence of your humanity.
Let those who love you help you.
Trust enough to be able to take.
Look with hope to the horizon of today,
for today is all we truly have.
Live this day well.
Let a little sun out as well as in.
Create your own rainbows.
Be open to all your possibilities;
all possibilities and Miracles.

Mystery

You look into my eyes and see things you don't understand. Am I a mystery? I think not. You look at my smile; You search for something that isn't there. Am I a mystery? I think not. You listen to my voice, and call me an angel. This angel is flesh and blood, Not a doll to be put on show. You see - I'm not a mystery. I am me. I am flesh and blood. Touch me; I wont break. There's no mystery here. Caress me; feel the warmth. I'm not a mystery; I am Woman. Here I am - desires abound; Relentless and sensuous - yours to caress Like a flower; make me bloom. Don't stop; not even to rest! No mystery here; Just a Woman. I feel the weight of your body against mine; Your heaving breath upon my skin. The most gentle touch on my thigh, The soft nibbling on my breasts - Moving slowly in a downward motion. Now you see, I'm no mystery; I am ............. Woman.

I am

hi im a 32 years old and trying to
live my life day by day for i can't
do more then that. every time i try
to plan things they all seem to
fail and i feel bad. im a woman that
trys not to hid my emotions but
they always seem to get locked up
inside and i can't get them out. i
don't know how for i can't seem
to express my self and many people
do not know when somethings wrong.
im one of those woman who can be
sitting in complete silence and
rember something and break out

Happy New Year 2010

Happiness depends on more than years.
All one's moments gather to a wave
Passing in a rolling swell of tears,
Passions too immense to name or save.
Yet New Year's is a crest on which to sing,
Now poised between the future and the past.
Each awaits what course the fates may bring,
Winds that never touch the things that last.
Years turn and turn with an hypnotic grace
Even as the depths of life lie still. Although above one cannot silence face,
Remember that below the divers will.

It Hurts to know ?

It hurts to know you? re hurting
Because you? re so special in my heart
The pain that you are feeling
Is tearing me apart

But know that love has a way
Of easing all that ? s wrong
Together we can make it
If we hold on and just be strong

Know that you ?re not alone
In all your adversity
For by your side through and through
Is where I ? ll always be

I Care For You So Deeply

I care for you so deeply.
My heart beats for your slightest touch.

Your voice sings to me so sweetly
That I want to be with you ever so much.

I think about you always,
Sometimes with concern and desperate
I want to mean something to you
No matter what the heartache I may bare.

You have such an aura about you,
One that makes me weak in the knees.

I get so nervous around you,
It's hard to keep these butterflies at ease.

Your eyes reach deep inside me
This is why I try to hide.

I fear that you'll see everything
Opening my heart up even more wide.

When your breath caresses my lips
And our bodies are intertwined,

I can't help but feel your heart pounding,
Wanting these moments to be only mine.

You have such a power within in you
A responsibility not taken to lightly.

To you I would graciously give everything,
If it was me you could smile for so brightly.

I'm not asking you to give me your everything,
Just an honest woman I want to be.

To hold you and kiss you and love you,
To take all your hurt and set it free.

I need to be .....................

When I'm feeling sad and blue,
I need someone to help me through,

To make me laugh, to make me glad
To comfort me when I'm feeling sad.

To help dry away my tears,
To help me overcome my fears.

A person who'll be standing strong,
When everything is going wrong.

In short, I need to be loved with .....................................................................

What I Love About You...

The sparkle in your eye,
The warmth of your skin.
Your breath on my neck,
That quivers within.

The touch of your hand,
The smell of your hair.
The kindness in your smile,
That strength in your stare.

Your kiss on my lips,
Your body near mine.
The stroke of your touch,
That feeling inside.

The sound of your voice,
Compassion in your embrace.
The serenity in your stride,
The power in your face.

The calming of your presence,
The beating of your heart.
The promise of tomorrow,
That we may never part.

The beauty of your kiss,
and that magic in your touch.
It is for all these reasons and more,
Why I love you so much.

My Firend B day

Hope lovely surprises
Are coming your way,
To make your
Birthday

Here’s a Birthday greeting
Especially to show
How much you mean
Although you surely must know
That without a doubt
There’s no-one nicer than you
Or anyone dearer
To wish Happy Birthday to

I Walk

I walks along this lonely street
no one to dry my tears
massage my tired feet
or calm ever present fears

Seeing life through tainted heart
making everything gray
Alone, my life, anew to start
Always searching for a way

But life goes on no matter what
That fact she cannot quell
Memories ne'er to be forgot
Within her heart they dwell

So I keeps walking this lonely street
Keeps searching to find my way
Every night i lies down to sleep
And prays tomorrow's a better day

goodbye."

I've learned a lot of lessons
In the short time I have lived
I've learned how to appreciate
And I've learned how to give.

But in these past few months
There's two I'll remember most
I've learned how to love
And I've learned to let go.

You entered my life with such a force
And left it with one as strong
And though we tried to make it last
We both knew it wouldn't be long.

I lie at night and think about
How I'm the one to blame.
If only I would have trusted you,
I could have missed this pain.

And so I spent each day of my life
With my heart in pieces
And when I thought it could never be cured,
Something happened; I expected it least.

I guess my soul was all cried out,
And it was tired of being used.
And even though I know I'm guilty,
I was tired of being accused.

And so I've learned to end this
Without an urge to cry
These are my final words to you,
"I love you and goodbye."

Every "

very new beginning,
comes from some beginnings end.

Every time you kill me,
I am born again.

Every time you close that door,
Another door is opened.

And every time you say goodbye,
a different word is spoken.

Every time you look at me
my back is facing you,

And every time you ask to see me
I'll have something else to do.

Every time I join your game,
You're not playing fair,

And every time I really love you,
I pretend that I don't care.

My God, why

My God, why did you take my mother? Angles took the wrong one - not her - another. Regret is a feeling that I feel everyday; You took her from me, and I didn't say - "I Love You, Mom," in my own way; Only to hear her say it back to me. God, why couldn't you just let us be? She didn't deserve to die; Didn't deserve to be in pain, Only to leave me here asking you why - Night after night when I cry in vain.

YOU SAY NOTHING

I see it in your eyes
I see it in your face
I ask myself is it really there?
I ask you and you say nothing at all

I wonder have you ever felt this way before?
I hear your heart beat and you say nothing at all
I see a twinkle in your eyes
I guess you feel it too, don't you?

I feel your hand in mine
I see cupid's arrow of love just hit you
I ask you "can you feel it?"
I hear those words " I Love You"

leave me alone!

Please just leave me alone!
Will you stop calling my house?
You made that decision on your own.
You decided not to be my spouse.

Now, please just leave me alone.
No need for me to hear your voice.
Please, stop calling my telephone.
I am comfortable with your choice.

Any memory of you, I have erased.
I wiped them completely out of my mind.
I don’t want to remember, even, your face.
I love the peace, without you, I have found.

Please, just leave me alone!
I don’t care that, for me, your body aches.
I no longer crave to make you moan.
Just, leave me alone for heaven sakes.

I Don't NeeD

I don't need a man
To happy me
I don't need a man
To make my LIFE
Complete all I need
Is to be LOVE by someone
Who really cares there
Are feelings I have
Inside but they just
Won't go away so until
then I don't need a
Man to make me HAPPY
I don't need a man to
Make my LIFE complete

People come .................... ?

People come into our lives Only to leave So when people go it’s sad But not hard to believe Life made me see Things so much better Nothings promised forever And it’s once in a life time That people stay together So I’ve learned not to get my hopes high Only for them to be let down Because when you hit that ground It’s hard to get back up And the only one there to help you Is really ya self That’s the one thing I learned the hard way That’s why I’m careful about who I let in Who I get close to And who I let stay

Cant Trust

my past made me not trust completely
wasn't able to trust anybody fully
YOU made me not trust at all
and i thought i was too strong
thought i wasn't able to fall
thought that i wouldn't allow myself to get hurt anymore
but that all changed when you knocked
and i opened up that door
my past made me not trust
wasn't able to love
and although i know my man is true
even him i decreasingly trust
because YOU were that one
now I hate YOU
and i am so pissed off
my past made me not trust most things
but YOU made me not trust anything at ALL

WE

When it comes to lovin' couples,
don't we make the perfect pair-
There's romance, love, and laughter
in the friendship that we share.
We care enough to listen,
to trust and understand.
To build a life together,
side by side and hand in hand.
We both know that we're lucky
and we've got a good thing going.
Through ups and downs
and give and take,
our love just keeps on growing...
'Cause I bring out the best in you,
and you the best in me-
I guess it takes the two of us
to make the perfect "we."

Hurt

My heart still hurts,
and causes me pain,
I wish I could just see him again,
I thought we would be together,
from now till forever,
but something took that away,
now I had to start my own days,
but why am I still stuck
carrying the pain,
I thought the pain was over
till I spoke of your name
now it's all back to haunt me again
I still hold the memories of you and I
why oh why did we have to fight
we were both young
but I thought it was true love
but then you had to turn
to those damn drugs
they tore us apart
and caused us both pain
do you ever wish you could hold me again?
now it's too late
now it's all gone
because now we both chose to move on.
do you ever wonder
do you still care
do you ever shed tears,
I didn't I was being strong
that's how I learned to move on
but now it's back to haunt me
and I realize I still care
I wish I could turn back all the years
and make you stop
and make you listen
and make you see
that you were meant to only be with me.
we use to laugh
we use to love
we use to be close as a dove
now everyone will see why I hate drugs
they cause problems
they cause pain
gosh I wish you could see me once again
I love to laugh
I love to love
gosh all I wanted was your sweet hugs
but now my heart is squished like a bug
once again the pain has risen
now I have to get it back to hidden
please take care in what ever you do
but please always know that I did love you..

mistakes,

As you begin to take action toward the fulfillment of your goals and dreams, you must realize that not every action will be perfect. Not every action will produce the desired result. Not every action will work. Making mistakes, getting it almost right, and experimenting to see what happens are all part of the process of eventually getting it right.

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When you plant lettuce, if it does not grow well, you don't blame the lettuce. You look for reasons it is not doing well. It may need fertilizer, or more water, or less sun. You never blame the lettuce. Yet if we have problems with our friends or family, we blame the other person. But if we know how to take care of them, they will grow well, like the lettuce. Blaming has no positive effect at all, nor does trying to persuade using reason and arguments. That is my experience. No blame, no reasoning, no argument, just understanding.

Each Day

Each day is a new canvas to paint upon. Make sure your picture is full of life and happiness, and at the end of the day you don't look at it and wish you had painted something different.

Together

As I look at your picture I wish you were here
Those sweet words you whisper I can hear so clear
You're saying you love me and want to hold me tight
You want to be near me and love me tonight
I dream of you holding me and you made me see
That together forever we were meant to be
The warmth of your body close to mine
As you and I are lost in time
You reach out to touch me with your loving hand
I never knew you were such a caring man
As you and I embrace you say that you love me
With you my darling I will always be.

Suddenly

I suddenly feel so sad and alone You've carved your name in my heart We've just said hello and goodbye again I can feel the teardrops start You're gone - not forever - but gone just the same All those long lonely miles away Can't wait 'til you come back to me Forever and ever to stay

Pure Love

I know a love
Few ever find
A spiritual love
A love that is mine.

He is truly an angel
God's gift to me
A sensitive soul
I will cherish always.

I have yet to look into his eyes
though when I do,
I haven't a doubt in this world
These feelings are true.

Such a warm tender heart.
The most beautiful of men.
He shares the same dreams
and desires as I.

Still . . .

So out of reach, Yet,
So very close.
Forever in my heart and mind- -
Sharing one soul for eternity.

If I Could Make A Wish

If I could make a wish
And have it last forever and a day,
I would take you in my arms
And this is where I'd stay..
For there's no one else I know
That holds my heart like you,
And I know someday, baby,
You'll realize this is true.

If I could make a wish
Your lips would be on mine,
I'd slowly sip and savor you
Like only the finest wine.
For there's no one else I know
That gives me so much pleasure,
And I know someday, baby,
You'll see that you're my treasure.

If I could make a wish
Our bodies would unite,
There's nothing I'd love more
Than making love all night.
For there's no one else I know
Who gives me passion like you do,
And I know someday, baby,
All my wishes will come true.

If I could make a wish
I'd start by making things right,
I'd take away all your doubts,
And hold you through the night.
For there's no one else I know
That means as much you see,
And I know someday, baby,
You'll learn to trust in me.

If I could make a wish.
It would be just you and me,
No worries in the world,
Just happy as can be.
For there's no one else I know
Who with me, makes the perfect rhyme,
And I know someday, baby,
In another place in time.

If I could make a wish
I'd go to the next lifetime to be with you,
I know that you're my soulmate,
There's no doubt I know it's true.
For there's no one else I know
That is my destiny,
I know I'm meant for you,
And I know you're meant for me.

Longing To Meet

I heard your voice just the other day.
so sweet and sexy in every way.
I long to meet, to become one.
I long to feel your gentle kiss,
your body close to mine.
to feel the intensity, oh so strong.

Longing, wanting you to be mine.
Baby, I cant wait no more.
My body aches for yours.
You ask me if I'm ready -
I tell you that I am.
You touched my heart and soul
in such a special way .
I long for us to meet.
I know that we will bond -
it's apparent from how we speak.

You ask me if I'm ready,
I tell you that I'm yours.

Different

How are we so "different"?
If "different" is just a thing.
If we all have certain features,
What does "different" bring?

People filled with hatred,
Can't possibly see,
That there's not really "differences"
Between you and me.

Looks can't show "difference",
If they're just there to be seen.
If you don't look like someone else,
Why are they so mean?

If being "different" is what is wrong,
I'd rather not be right.
And I'd want to finish living,
Doing the "different" fight.

My Friend

I feel like I've known you forever
Although I only met you sometime this past year
But our friendship will remain forever
No matter what shall cross our paths and hearts

The best thing that's happened to me
Is finding a forever friend like you
You're there to listen, help, and talk to
And best of all, I know I can confide in you

Some say the best love is one sprung from friendship
So I feel this is why we should try
Time leads us in this direction
Should we follow on down the line?

Friendship and love are always intertwined
Too close which sometimes causes confusion
But if we don't try, we will never know if it was meant to be
But forever you will remain my friend

I don't know if this is going to work
I'm not totally sure we should try
But I have all these mixed feelings
Bottled up inside

I love you both inside and out as my best friend
And I know that you love me that way too
So when I say "best friends forever"
That even means when I'm saying" Goodbye, I love you, too."

You Meant So Much

You meant so much to all of us You were special and that's no lie You brightened up the darkest day And the cloudiest sky Your smile alone warmed hearts Your laugh was like music to hear I would give absolutely anything To have you well and standing near Not a second passes When you're not on our minds Your love we will never forget The hurt will ease in time Many tears I have seen and cried They have all poured out like rain I know that you are happy now And no longer in any pain.

Endure

If I can endure for this moment,
whatever is happening to me.
No matter how heavy my heart,
or how dark the moment may be.
If I can but keep on believing,
what I know in my heart to be true.
Then darkness will fade into morning,
and with this dawn a new day, too.

Hold Me

Not many have ever known
and if I tell - who would believe?
There's nothing I can call my own
not even the things I have achieved.

It's always better that way
All that is aching inside
It's better for it to stay -
covered up with hurt's pride.

All in good time
I will open the gate
of this little heart of mine
in a moment of fate.

For a soul that's been torn and
a heart controlled by other
there's not much you can do
But to hold me in your arms -
my dearest Mother.

Mask

A mask of plastic happiness often covers her sadness
Her beliefs hidden from most
Afraid of, but willing to face the unknown
Wondering where her place is in this life
She has come close to sharing herself
Never completely revealing anything to anyone
Feelings of invisible chains corner her
When she dreams, reality shatters before her very eyes
Accomplishments she strives for just at hands grasp
She feels lost sometimes, not yet finding her notch in this world
At times the glimmer in her calm eyes slowly disappears
But within her heart a silent flame burns her inside and out
She roams day by day, playing roles
Strength unknowingly resides in her
History repeats itself once again
The translucent veil she so proudly wears
Little by little answers will come, pushing it aside
One day there will be no more mask for her to wear
One day her beliefs will be known
One day she'll know her place in this life
One day she will share herself
ONE DAY this mask will be NO MORE

Life's Choices

Life is full of choices
Make sure you pick the right one
Don't listen to the voices
Hear only yours and you have won

Many people will tell you
You need to change your looks
Don't take to heart their view
Fabulous bods are found only in books

There is only one voice
That you should listen to
It will help make the right choice
That is perfect just for you

Your looks are your own
Someone will always love you
You will never be alone
Look in the mirror and you'll see who

For My Bestest Friend

Friendship is something to hold on to
But for me that's not the case
Cause I don't feel I need to keep
Something that can't be erased

I am sure of what I have
Cause with you I have no doubt
For what we've built, can't ever fail
It's what I care about

I find it hard to describe
This thing that we share
Especially when there's nothing else
That ever could compare

Others always know
That together we will be
For there can never be another
"Tani and Kerrie"

Those two words, known all over
Might as well be one
Cause without a Kerrie, there is no Tani
I'm sorry, it just can't be done

For you're the "U", and I'm the "S"
And forever that will be
Cause together we make "US", and so
YOU COMPLETE ME!!

Mistakes

In all the work we do, our most valuable asset can be the attitude of self-examination. It is forgivable to make mistakes, but to stand fast behind a wall of self-righteousness and make the same mistake twice is not forgivable.

I'm Not Ready

Why do I feel so down on love?
Is love supposed to be this wonderful emotion that gives me joy inside?
I feel like love sucked the joy right out of me,
It's like my heart's been ran over by an 18 wheeler,

Keeping my feelings guarded for so long has been exhausting,
Looking at the guy that I've liked since high school started,
Every single day is torture on my soul,

I wish I had the courage to speak to him
instead of turning the other direction when he walks pass,
What about sitting next to 2 boys that I admire very much,
And hardly breathing a word to them,
Why is God making me go through this?
I know I can't blame God for this problem,
Since I'm the one who is the coward

God is love and vice verse, am I right?
So maybe I'm not ready for love yet,
It may not be my time just yet,

Just maybe, God wants me to wait for the right person to come along and sweep me off my feet,
God doesn't want me to be disappointed again,
I guess I have to be patient and wait a little bit longer,
Since God is love, I will trust that he will take care of me in the department of true, pure love.

This Feeling

This feeling inside, I cannot hide.
This feeling inside, I can't deny.
I can't explain it, I don't know why.
This feeling inside, I cannot hide.

It drives me crazy, it drives me insane,
The way it sounds when you say my name.
The way you touch me, the way we kiss,
It gives me this feeling that's hard to miss.

It's like a dream, but ten times better,
The way I feel when we're together.
You give me this feeling I can't deny.
This amazing feeling I cannot hide.
I can't explain it, I don't know why.
This feeling inside I cannot hide.

?questions?

I always have these tears to cry,
and I'm left with all these wondering questions of why?
Why can't we seem to get over the past,
and come together and be a whole at last?
Why won't you at least try to believe what I say,
instead of just pushing me away?
Why do I keep putting myself out there,
and you don't even seem to care?
I have these emotions I wish you would see,
so I wouldn't be left with the questions of,
"will he or won't he?"
Will he ever love me like he used to,
and give me the things I once knew?
Won't he see,
I feel I don't know him anymore,
and let himself go back to how he was before?
Will I still hurt when I heal,

Disappear

why won't this pain disappear.
why won't it just end.
I try so hard to belong just to fit in.
my mother and my father have no idea what's wrong.
I'm tired of being the friend just so you don't hurt.
You know how I feel and yet you won't respond
This is so unfair when will it ever end
Will it just build up until the end
I love you so and want you to feel the same
I'm sorry for coming into your life
I think I should just disappear
when you wake in the morning
beside your bed you will see a note
that contains it all
and you know 'ill always be beside you in my heart not wanting to flee.