Disappear

why won't this pain disappear.
why won't it just end.
I try so hard to belong just to fit in.
my mother and my father have no idea what's wrong.
I'm tired of being the friend just so you don't hurt.
You know how I feel and yet you won't respond
This is so unfair when will it ever end
Will it just build up until the end
I love you so and want you to feel the same
I'm sorry for coming into your life
I think I should just disappear
when you wake in the morning
beside your bed you will see a note
that contains it all
and you know 'ill always be beside you in my heart not wanting to flee.