Good Bye _ _ _ _ :)

A thought we shared
A life we lived
A love we had together

Good times
Bad times
Nothing lasts forever

A broken heart
A tear I shed
Love can have much pain

For knowing you
For loving you
So much I have gained


Good-bye
It's over but always remember
I had loved you so very much

once thought

I had once thought
that maybe this was life.
No love, no hate, no feelings.
My deepest feelings would never be shared.
I was so frightened,
I didn't know what to do.
Scared of this one man all my life.
Face my fear, I told myself!
But it's so hard, so confusing.
Do you know what it's like
to wonder in darkness?
It never stops, never ends.
It goes on like a story with no ending.
Do you know how it feels
to be afraid of something
that you can't do anything about?
That you didn't ask for or even think about?
Do you know what it's like? Do you know how it feels?
It's complete and pure emptiness.

When i have a bad day

When i have a bad day , kneel by my bedside and pray.
and tell GOD what i have done wrong .
but he never make me the bad one.
I feel like a warm glow enters the room
as he answer yes , your evil will fly away.
Then i can climb into my bed knowing that the next morning it all come clear.
Thats my life will never be the same
Knowing that GOD helping me along.

Hurting Me

Even though we are no longer together.
And I no longer consider you as my lover.
My feelings mixed and mind confused.
My body feels misused and abused.
I can't let you go even though I want to.
My thoughts are always consumed with you.
I try to move on but always lose interest.
Because of the feelings that I can't put to rest.
How can I still want you after what you did.
Why is your voice still ringing in my head.
Will I ever be able to forget.
All the time together we spent.
I just want these feelings to go away.
Somehow I know that forever in my heart they'll stay.
Even though I pretend that nothing is wrong and hide behind a smile.
Inside I am crying like a newborn child.
When I am alone sometimes I call out your name.
But the response I get is always the same.
A response filled with silence that adds to my pain.
All I really want is for you to love me again.
Maybe I am just to dumb or too blind to see.
That you will forever be still hurting me

Hold ME Close

Hold me close and don’t let go;
I'm so scared to be alone.
I've been by myself for too long,
And always had to be strong.
Now I only want to rest;
And lay my head on your chest.
Hold me close and don’t let go;
These wars I fight no one knows.
Now whisper how you love me,
Say it tender and softly.
I am weary and soon will sleep,
But with you no longer will I weep.
So hold me close and don't let go,
For I never want to be alone.

I don’t know

I don’t know if You and I is right
I can’t say it would never end
I don’t care if it looks okay
I can’t measure the feelings we share
I don’t know the times we’d share
I can’t predict our future
I don’t know the places we’d see
I can’t project our opportunities
I don’t the count of our seed
I can’t how many sacrifices we’d make
I don’t know how we’d look when old
There are many unknowns
But, I would jump off a cliff
And hope I can fly
Cos I believe in what I feel for you

While I was sleeping

While I was sleeping

While I was sleeping
Someone else took you away
And I woke up and had to face
A strange, but real and lonely day.

How can it be that I have loved you,
But you did not realise?
Now you belong to someone else
And live in paradise.

While I am banished,
Left with the tragedy
Of love, so pure and simple
But that can never come to be.

Life is a mess
And made me become a fool.
While I was sleeping, suddenly,
I lost you, mean and cruel.

I'm really very sorry.

It's so hard to find
the right words to say
when somebody you care is
hurting...

More so, when you know
that you could be one of
the causes of the other person's
pain and anguish...

There just aren't enough words
to describe the feelings
I want to share,
I didn't mean to frighten you
with my intensity but I guess,
I did, I know what has happened
is inexcusable and it would be
too much to expect that
you would forgive me.

What scares me the most
is the thought that
you might want to give up or me...

Please don't...
I'm really very sorry.

f I Had One Chance

LOOKING BACK ON THE MANY OBSTACLES IN LIFE, SOME THINGS I JUST DIDN'T DO RIGHT IN AND OUT OF TROUBLE, THAT'S HOW THINGS WENT, THAT WAS MY LIFE NEVER HOLDING ON TO ANYTHING, IN FACT, I THOUGHT MY LIFE WAS IN TACT DIDN'T SEEM AS IF ANYTHING WAS WRONG, WHEN ONE SITUATION CAME I HANDLED IT COULDN'T FIGURE OUT WHY I HAD SO MANY UNTIL THAT ONE NIGHT I HEARD MY MOM CRYING SHE WAS PRAYING FOR ME, HER SON, AND EVERYTHING SHE WAS PRAYING FOR DIDN'T SOUND LIKE ME, UNTIL... SHE SPOKE ON ONE THING, IN WHICH TOOK ME BACK TO ONE OF THE HARDEST TIMES IN MY LIFE FILLED WITH STRIFE, MISERY, PAIN AND ALL OUT NOTHING TO GAIN RESPECT WASN'T WORTH IT, WORRIES IN MY MOM'S LIFE JUST DIDN'T FIT SHE CONTINUED, EYES FILLED WITH GRIEF, HER LAST PRAY, FOR GOD TO TURN ME MOM IS NO MORE, AND I SIT IN A PLACE WHERE ELECTRICAL FENCES SEPARATE ME FROM THE OUTSIDE WORLD IF I COULD GIVE ANYTHING TO BRING THE ONE WOMAN WHO TRULY LOVED ME, BACK TO A PLACE WHERE SHE IS NEEDED MY LIFE I WOULD LIE DOWN, AND TRADE IN SO THE WORLD COULD SEE HER SMILING FACE AGAIN

God pls ..........

I was once told that as time goes by Everything changes with no reason why Explanations we won't receive We're just told we must believe The GOD has a plan for each of us This I Believe - This I Trust Doctor - Lawyer - Teacher - Wife GOD what's your plan for my life? Explanations I don't expect Just some guidance down the right track Show me GOD your plan for me I ask this of you while on my knees Praying to you helps me to see The wonderful plan you have for me The GOD has a plan for each of us This I Believe - This I Trust

Some Day

some days i want to live
some days i wish it’s over
some days i long to see
some days i wait to die;

some days i think i am fine
some days i believe i have a problem
some days i am strong
some days i am weak;

some days i am closer to truth
some days it seems far far away
some days i think i understand
some days i am just lost;

some days i just wish
everything would disappear
some days i just hope
you could be near;

some days i have a feeling
one day everything
will be alright
and that day is closer
than ever;

Make my wish come true

searching for answers
that evaded me for so long,
i got lost in a maze of treachery
hidden under a mask of innocence;

it’s been so long
words kept me awake
all night long, making
me restless and confused;

drowning in the wishes
of a long lost past,
i let my life down,
i let myself down;

in the midst of the night
under the velvet skies
i surrendered to life
i whisper for forgiveness;

so with a smile on my lips
and a wish on my heart
i give faith(hope) one more reason
i give life another chance
to make my wish come true

Teardrops

a thousand tears i cried
over the last few days
what was once a dry(gentle) riverbed
transformed into a wild river overnight
with each passing moment
and each passing hour
with the clock slowly ticking away
the tears just continue unabated
a thousand gallons of teardrop
gently caress the feet of those nearby
yet no one moved an inch
a teardrop a second
slowly squeezing the life out of me
slowly putting an end to this wretched existence
a river that was once dormant (gentle)
now surges on
inside me
a river of teardrops

FAte

It seems or so people say,
the moment we are born
our fate is already etched
on to our foreheads

how i wish mine was a different one,
i could then do all that i wanted,
the way i want to, carefree
and not bound by any restrictions;

how i wish you could stay with me,
spend our time together without a care
not worrying when you will be taken away
and hidden from us all;

moment when you left, still visible
in my eyes, those sweet, laughter filled
eyes turning into a ravaging floods, once
the realization set in;

unable to stop you, unable to do much
beyond waving goodbye,
standing amidst a sea of gloom
we bid you farewell, hoping the next time
is much longer than this time;

Different"

How are we so "different"?
If "different" is just a thing.
If we all have certain features,
What does "different" bring?

People filled with hatred,
Can't possibly see,
That there's not really "differences"
Between you and me.

Looks can't show "difference",
If they're just there to be seen.
If you don't look like someone else,
Why are they so mean?

If being "different" is what is wrong,
I'd rather not be right.
And I'd want to finish living,
Doing the "different" fight.

FrusTraTed

Angry and frustrated at times.
Feeling like the inside of me, is no longer alive.
Trying to reach out and make a connection.
In return, getting no love or affection.
No longer wanting to go on.
We've lost that special bond.

The love we had is no longer there.
It's to the point that I really don't care.
I need some love and attention.
Among other things, I just won't mention.
Wanting someone to be here for me.
I guess it may never be.

What You Really Are

You hurt me once, you'll hurt me again.
But what am I supposed to do until then?
Why do you keep coming in my life,
right after I get over you?
There's just that one thing about you
I just don't understand.
Why do you do this to me?
Why do I let you hurt me over and over?
Why can I not resist you?

I keep thinking maybe this time it will be different,
but you never come through like I want you to.
I want to get totally over,
but I can't when you keep doing this to me.
I hope this stops,
cause I don't think I can take it any longer.
What draws you to me?
Why can't I not see what you really are?

Black Rose

Like a rose,
Love is beautiful
When it is alive.

Blooming,
Bright,
Filling the air
With a sweet fragrance,
As it spreads its petals.

But when it dies,
It dries,
Becoming brittle,
Eventually turning black
And falling apart.

GeTTing Over

Another day had pass,
my feelings are still the same.
It has been a while,
since I've said your sweet name.

Why is it like this?
What did I do wrong?
When will these feelings end?
I've waited far too long.

My thoughts are fading,
the answers I can't find.
Oh! how can I get,
you out of my mind?

The words are running out,
there's nothing else to do.
But to wait and to hope,
that I'll get over you.

Can my heart move on,
without another tear?
Will my emotions heal,
if you come near.

If these feelings die,
as it flows to the stream.
Will I ever wake up,
from this endless dream?

Needing

My heart cries for you.
It's all I hear day and night.
It haunts me crying,
Crying for you and your love.

These empty arms crying out,
Wanting, needing to embrace you,
To make physical contact,
To hold you close to my heart.

The need for you consuming me,
Over shadowing everything,
Reaching out for you,
Crying out for you.

Touching empty air.
Sinking down in despair.
Wanting, needing,
Reaching, crying.

Loving you so, needing you so,
Dying a little each day.
The need is so great.
The pain so strong.

The emptiness inside so great,
So dark, so lonely.
Just a big void,
Waiting for your love.

Needing the warmth
That your love surrounds me in,
Aching for the rays of your sunshine,
That your love brings into my life.

Needing, wanting,
Reaching, crying,
Always for you,
My love, my life.

The End

Sad
When someone loves me, and I don’t love them.
Happy
When someone loves me, and I love them too.
Mad
When someone loves me, and I love the guy over there.
Confused
When someone loves me, and I SAID I love them, but then I stop loving them.
The End
When someone loves me, and I love them back, and I don’t stop loving them. Even after I die.

Life

Life is like an old house; it gets used,
worn-out and old.
Then it’s time to move to another.
Life is just a place where your soul lives while it’s on earth.
When your soul gets tired of living on earth it finds a new home.
As time goes by, so does your Life.
So live life to the fullest, and don’t let a day go by without cherishing it.

Standing Alone

I can see the flower upon which my life grows, blooming into a rose.

See the hope and courage in the strength of the petals.
As long as I am, I will be.
The flower will never wilt or die.
As my life grows back, I shall become strong.
I shall become only dependent on one.
That one will be me.
I will rise with my petals high.
My life as a flower will bloom and prosper as I grow.
I may not be the pick of the patch, but I am just as beautiful as the rest.

I will stand as one, but not a lonely soul.
The tears will be far from my smile.

Rose Without You

With this rose, I not only give you merely a rose,
but I give you my heart and soul.
I send to you all the love I have to give,
and anything else that would give me the
chance to touch your heart.
 
With this rose, I reveal all my
thoughts and feelings about you
that I have withheld for so long.
I feel when I am with you... I am like a rose,
not because of it?s beauty,
but because I am able to bloom and grow with you.
 
To me you are like a rose's sunshine,
so full of energy and light,
that never does it fail to lift my spirits.
Just by the sound of your voice and that look in your eye.

I could never tear my eyes from you,
you are able to make my life worth living.
But, without you, just like a rose,
I would wither and die.
Not all at once, but little by little,
petal by petal.

Slowly at first, because you have made me
stronger and stronger each day you're with me.
But eventually, without you, I will loose
all those beautiful petals you have given me.

WhAt LoVe Is

It is Love that gives me purpose
to change and grow and learn.
It is Love that guides me on this path
and helps me choose each turn.

It is Love that gives me courage
to stand against my fears;
to open up my heart to you,
to let you see my tears.

It is Love that gives me trust and hope
when little thing go wrong.
When distance stands between us,
it is Love that keeps me strong.

It is Love that offers harmony
and a friendship that is true.
How wonderful that I can share
a Love like this with you!

I cry WHY ?

Sometimes we argue, I don't know why.
Then I sit and wonder, why do I cry?

I cry because ..........,
I cry because I care,
I cry because I feel we have a love so rare,
sometimes I'm afraid I'll turn around and you won't be there.

I love you every minute,
I love you every day,
I even love you when we argue,
I love you when we play.

Sometimes I've wondered do you love me too,
then I look in your eyes and
I know it's true.
So when I say something a little crazy
or I do something you don't feel is right,
Please, let's try to work it out so we won't fight.

Some people take relationships for granted
it's sad to hear but true,
I don't want this to happen, not with you.
I want our relationship to be completely from the heart
so we both know, no matter what we go through we will never part.

WILL YOU?

If I will only let
this moment pass away
the chance to have you
will fly and will not stay.

Where will i be now?
If you won't be here
Will you let this tears
wash the happiness
of the past?

Will you still love me
if I tell you
that I will love you
more than you do?

will you hate me
if I wont ever let you go
It's so hard
Please tell me will you?

LEavE

What would I do if you leave?
I'd miss you, I believe
That's what I'd do if you leave
Emotions are kept under my sleeve
So my prayers to you I'd give

Please stay a bit longer
For I may see you again never
And you leaving isn't for the better
Surely I'd miss you sooner or later

Everyday I miss you more and more
It makes my heart feel so sore
Thinking of the way things were,
I'd like to go back
to the times we had before.

I giVe my hEaRt.

You're the first thing I think of
Each morning when I rise.
You're the last thing I think of
Each night when I close my eyes.

You're in each thought I have
And every breath I take.
My feelings are growing stronger
With every move I make.

I want to prove I love you
But that's the hardest part.
So, I'm giving all I have to give
To you... I give my heart.

leSSonS

I've learned a lot of lessons
In the short time I have lived
I've learned how to appreciate
And I've learned how to give.

But in these past few months
There's two I'll remember most
I've learned how to love
And I've learned to let go.

You entered my life with such a force
And left it with one as strong
And though we tried to make it last
We both knew it wouldn't be long.

I lie at night and think about
How I'm the one to blame.
If only I would have trusted you,
I could have missed this pain.

And so I spent each day of my life
With my heart in pieces
And when I thought it could never be cured,
Something happened; I expected it least.

I guess my soul was all cried out,
And it was tired of being used.
And even though I know I'm guilty,
I was tired of being accused.

And so I've learned to end this
Without an urge to cry
These are my final words to you,
"I love you and goodbye."

Touch Yourself And You Touch Me

I understand the why
Yet I cannot grasp the how;
But if this is the way you must handle us
I will try to understand somehow.

There is one thing that I ask
As you walk away;
Please create a corner in your heart for me
So at least, there, I can always stay.

You will always be my love
That will never change;
Though we are going separate ways
That fact remains the same.

I know we must let each other go
Circumstances force us to set each other free;
But today, I give back to you . . . your words -
Touch Yourself and You Touch Me.

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I am weak now having attempted to cry out all feelings and emotions for you: In one breath you make me smile and cry in one phone call you lift my spirits and plunge me into depression Your voice can build up my hopes and shatter my dreams. You leave me wondering, yet disenchanted. How you do it, I'll never know. And that you do it, I'll never breathe a clue. At least not to you.

In And Out Of LOVE.

When I say I love you I do But this with you will not do I need someone I can lean on Someone I can count on too Yes you are there sometimes For that I am grateful to you But I need someone there full time And that you can not do You told me once you loved me That I could believe in you I was there when you needed someone Where were you when I needed someone, too? The time has come for me to let go Never to expect you to care again People may come and people may go But my love will never end

Making Love To A ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

You were always so perfect to me,
so soft and gentle,
cherishing you instantly,
without a second glance,
I never distrusted those eyes,
that lied to me continuously,
I promised you I'd always try,
but slowly you were losing me.

I would always have given you anything,
just to keep your interest,
stopping my heart from remembering,
all the pain you caused,
I never pulled away from that kiss,
that held a painful hint of truth,
Maybe you'd be too hard to miss,
so I said I was still in love with you.

I wanted more than just the infatuation,
that you found in me.
You said love was only a distraction,
that you really didn't need,
so I cried myself to sleep,
knowing the times we shared must end.
You couldn't let emotion run deep,
you said you made love to me, as a ...........

But eventually, my love,
fade, too,
and I can't make love and walk away,
pretending I don't love you.
Never once did I push you away,
but everything comes to end,
so all that's left to say,
is goodbye,

I loved loving you, my ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

If I prAy sO?

Hoping and praying,
Dreaming and considering,
Never knowing yet always knowing, Wanting to, yet not wanting to, Mixing my heart, Matching my soul to yours, Twisting fate with the flick of the wrist, Turning my life over, Hoping that it would end, Praying that it never would stop, Thinking it was over, Wishing that it wasn't, Dreaming of its coming, Considering letting it steal within Never knowing if it's true, Always knowing that it's there. Wanting to live in the light, Not wanting the light to come, The love of another The dreams of someone close, Remembering what you used to feel, Can it come back if I pray so?

I WaLk

I walks along this lonely street
no one to dry MY tears
massage MY tired feet
or calm ever present fears

Seeing life through tainted heart
making everything gray
Alone, MY life, anew to start
Always searching for a way

But life goes on no matter what
That fact I cannot quell
Memories ne'er to be forgot
Within MY heart they dwell

So I keeps walking this lonely street
Keeps searching to find MY way
Every night I lies down to sleep
And prays tomorrow's a better day

ThiNkinG

Thinking. Can't stop thinking.
Think of you. This. That. That Life. That day.
That dream was mine.
A utopian dream.

Your aura; struck me like lightning to a tree.
Pointy, like a star, you shone.
So bright, yet not shining as a star would,
But as apparent as white chalk on a blackboard.
You would not show off like a star.
Yet you did burn so hot, so fiercely, so explosively -
you were a star in my eyes.

But like all stars, you died.
That gas was gone.
No pull between us.
The atmosphere was dry
and I began to choke.
I was taken from my star - like a child being taken from its poor,
drunken mother - I did not know what was happening.
Dazed. Confused. Without true reality, I there sat.
Wondering.

The end of my world had only just begun, with yours beginning.

Tears

I look up
as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful
as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared
like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those hazel eyes
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek