Yellow ButterPly

Dance Me To The End Of Love

2010-10-03T01:49:00.000-07:00

Dance with me in love Dance with me in life When did enduring love begin? The day we became man and wife There is patience and understanding We try to be unselfish and kind Though not a fairy-tale romance No greater love will we find Sharing dreams, passions, and desires Building each other up when we fall We've learned to say I'm sorry And I love you through it all Our two hearts beat as one Cherishing what we have from above Dance with me forever Dance me to the end of love

You Walked Lightly

2010-10-03T01:12:00.000-07:00

You walked lightly into my life
Captivating and lovely to my mind,
At first, I never cared who you were
Now I don’t know who I am without you,
You kissed me
I felt my world change,
You held me
I heard my heart awaken,
You loved me
And my soul was born anew
You walked lightly into my life
Now my heart knows who you are
And with every breath
And every step
I take down lonely roads,
Your hand is my staff
Your voice is my guide
Your strength my shelter
You’re passion my awakening.
You walked lightly into my life,
And all my pain
You took as your own,
And all my fears
You cast into the sea,
All my doubt
Lost in your eyes,
You walked lightly into my life
And no matter if you choose to stay or go,
My life is forever changed,
Just because you loved me
For a moment in time.
And because I choose
To love you
For the rest of mine.

You Are Always There

2010-10-03T00:30:00.000-07:00

I dream of your touch while you are away,
I dream of your smile all through the day,
I remember the day,
You came into my life,
I dream of the day I will be your wife.

I dream of the day I can fall asleep next to you,
I dream of the day I can say I do.
To be your wife,
To be together for life,
Is a dream I have,
Every night.

WiLl YoU sTiLl LoVe Me ToMorRoW?

2010-10-03T00:16:00.000-07:00

Tonight you're mine completely
You give your love so sweetly
Tonight the light
Of love is in your eyes,
But will you love me tomorrow
Is this a lasting treasure
Or just a moment's pleasure
Can I believe the magic of your sighs
Will you still love me tomorrow
Tonight with words unspoken
You said that I'm the only one
But will my heart be broken
When the night
Meets the morning sun
I'd like to know that your love
Is just a love I'm sure of
So tell me now and I won't ask again
Will you still love me tomorrow
So tell me now and I won't ask again
Will you still love me tomorrow
Will you still love me tomorrow
Will you still love me tomorrow
Will you still love me tomorrow
Will you still love me tomorrow

your Love

2010-10-02T23:42:00.000-07:00

A gentle word like a spark of light, Illuminates my soul And as each sound goes deeper, It's YOU that makes me whole

There is no corner, no dark place, YOUR LOVE cannot fill And if the world starts causing waves, It's your devotion that makes them still And yes you always speak to me, In sweet honesty and truth Your caring heart keeps out the rain, YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof So thank you my Love for being there, For supporting me, my life I'll do the same for you, you know

Why i love u

2010-10-02T23:29:00.000-07:00

Every time I think about you,
I'm reminded of the reasons
why I love you from the depth
of my heart and soul.
And I wonder what I'd
do without you,
without your healing smile,
your words of faith,
the caring and sensitive way
you touch me,
lifting me
just when I need it most.
Without you,
what would I have?
What would I be?
I can't imagine existing in
a world where someone doesn't
love me the way you do.
You're the only one who ever
understood me and accepted me
for who I am.
And I think you're nothing short
of amazing.
Your love always has been
and always will be,
life's greatest gift to me!

Change of Heart

2010-09-16T04:06:00.000-07:00

Thoughts flow through my head,
As i wait to find the place where i belong,
Waiting in line for a long time,
My patience slowly ebbing away;

Searching for a way to find that special place for me,
That place where i can fly, the place where i feel free,
That place thats my own, the place where im totally
Free is right by your side, when its just you and me;

Challenges i met along the way,
Embrace my life with trepidation.
But, a changed person, i am today;

Suddenly the world is different,
The world is new,
The world is a place
Perfect for me and you;

And suddenly everything fits,
The world seems like a perfect place,
I’m no longer alone,
And my life doesn’t seem to be such a waste;

Some Days

2010-09-16T00:52:00.000-07:00

some days i want to live
some days i wish it’s over
some days i long to see
some days i wait to die;

some days i think i am fine
some days i believe i have a problem
some days i am strong
some days i am weak;

some days i am closer to truth
some days it seems far far away
some days i think i understand
some days i am just lost;

some days i just wish
everything would disappear
some days i just hope
you could be near;

some days i have a feeling
one day everything
will be alright
and that day is closer
than ever;

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Incomplete

2010-09-15T23:21:00.000-07:00

the Grey sky looming above,
rain drops still dripping down
from the pregnant clouds above,
we set out on our journey once again;

around and around we go
in slow circles, moving
to the beat of the thunder
and rain that surrounds us;

as the droplets hit the ground,
shattered realizations lay scattered
reminding me nothing is same
as it seems to be;

as another memory turns to dust
i cut the lifeline that attaches me to the past
and i shove it back into the depths
where nothing will ever bring it back alive;

the rain does nothing to stop our journey,
never forgetting, who we are
we walk these streets of madness,
knowing that,without each-other…..
we are simply incomplete.

Nothing is as good as you.

2010-07-20T00:03:00.000-07:00

Nothing i can every do will be better then loving you. With all your nice ways. All i can think about is how much i loving you. Nothing i can ever do will mean as much as you do. Like a never ending dream, I hope to never be seen. Nothing i can every do will make me as happy as you do. The need for your touch keeps the cuts deeper, the sadness of missing you makes me so blue. Nothing i can ever do will keep me away from you. Just like Siemens twins where stuck like glue. Gloomy sky's night and day no sun shine to take my pain away, then you appeared out of the darkness to turn my life right. Nothing will ever give me the high that u do. Take me over ill be your fool. Nothing i can every do will be as good as loving you.

With tears in my eyes, I moved on

2010-07-19T23:52:00.000-07:00

As I falls on my knees, and the worlds weight follow soon after.
the tears that drop down like ice, froze me like a sculpture
I sobs and weeps, was released at last
But still... I couldn't let go of the past

The tears that falls, that I wasted.
The voices that I screamed.
The rain was louder.
I wasn't heard.

I was scared, and alone.
I tried to walk tall.
I tried to be brave and strong.
With tears in my eyes, I moved on.

With My face held up high
from the dead, I spawn
I spread My wings, I fly
Even with tears in My eyes, I moved on.

The cracks in my heart, are never gone
The hollow holes were never filled
I never stop to think, I knows I should have to go on.
To replace the time, that was killed.

With the heartache in my head
I seem to forget
The way out behind the dread
There's always a friend, to see the sunset.

They were proud to call Me a friend.
for I am strong and brave
They will always be there till the end
in the end, till they reach their grave

I kept my distance
they kept me close
cause friendship is an essence
a light in the darkness that glows

IF ever I could tell you...

2010-07-19T22:10:00.000-07:00

If ever I could tell you the way that I feel,
Show you what's broken and the heart that will never heal.
If ever I could make you see that I can't live without,
But even with you around I feel like I've been split apart.

If ever I could tell you that it's always been about you,
You've changed so much it's hard to tell the distant past I knew.
If ever I could express the feelings buried in my heart so deep,
Would you really listen to me and stop the tears I weep.

And every time it's the same old story going round and round again,
Can't take to see myself break apart - not again.
Why's it so hard for you to see things the way I do,
Caught up in your own world making silly excuses I always knew.

Perhaps I was the fool to give my heart away,
Thinking you'd be the one guy that would give me renewed hope each day.
And as I cling silently, tears falling down my face,
I know that nothing will ever be the way it was - it's just a hopeless case.

But why does my heart not see the truth that shines through my eyes,
I knew it was a mistake to come back - all that resounds are lies.
An aching heart will continue to grieve,
The pain so strong it's hard to leave,
Forgetting what once was that will never be.
Perhaps foolish are those that crave for a love,
That duly not respected will break one in half.

It was my mistake, this time round.
I cannot walk back if every word I utter leaves no sound.
False dreams and hopes burnt with every word said,
If this was the way it was going to end then I wish You had not led,
My feet into his direction if all that was meant for me was pain.

Just wash away the memories,
And burn his name from my heart.
I don't want to remember,
It's time to end that which you could never start.

Pain

2010-07-17T22:54:00.000-07:00

a river of Ur thoughts has flooded my mind
a shiver of sorts has shaken up my spine
we shared all the smiles and the tears
your single gleam fended off all my fears
on the sands of time, i tread alone
on a path, full of thorns and stone
i experience a pain hitherto unknown
that stays with me when i am alone
i stand alone even when in a crowd
i wish i could just lie in my shroud
my love for u knew no constraints
inside me your memory never fades...

If I Had TIME

2010-04-27T04:42:00.000-07:00

Time, if I had all the time in the world I would have absolutely nothing
It is not time itself that makes your life worth something

In the time that I have I will be a kinder, gentler and more giving
I will take advantage of all the time I have to show more joy, I will be living

I will take the time that I have to listen more intently
I will respond and speak more wisely and more softly

In the time that I have I will share it with those whom I love
Because I have no idea how much time I have, that is up to God above

In the time that I have I will devote my self to God through Christ
I will respect the word of God because without him I have no life

In the Time that I have I will love and honor my love in all that I do
I do this out of love, a devoted and never ending love for you

In the time that I have I will share a passion for a blessed and positive life
I will make the time to share my love with my one greatest blessing, my love

In the time that we have together I will lift you up in spirit and to God I will pray
That you have health, kindness and love as part of your blessing each and every day

The Two Of Us

2010-04-27T03:36:00.000-07:00

I wish I knew what has become of the two of us
We used to talk, now I can’t speak no more
I’m told I speak way to loud
Nothing I have to say ever comes out right

I wish I knew what has become of the two of us
We used to have fun
Now we can’t stand to be around one another
All we ever seem to do is fight

I wish I knew what has become of the two of us
We used to laugh
Now I’ll I want to do is cry
You no longer hold me in your arms at night

I wish I knew what has become of the two of us
We spoke of the future quite often
Now it just seems bleak and blind
We no longer have the sunshine that is so bright

I wish I knew what has become of the two of us
We don’t seem to see eye to eye
It feels like we move only mechanically
Doesn’t look like there any hope in sight

I wish I knew what has become of the two of us
Nothing seems the same at all
Have we gotten to old to love one another
Has our marriage lost it’s delight?

Life is so much shorter

2010-04-27T03:02:00.000-07:00

Life is so much shorter
Than a hundred years lets on
When you don't try to live it right
And a hundred years have gone

Loneliness takes years away
So love whenever you can
Say the things you need to say
Hold your lover's hand

Give away the things you want
Use wisely what you need
Be happy with what God has sent
Make a million memories

Make others want to be like you
To accomplish the feats you have
Make somebody's dreams come true
Be a loving mom or dad

Treat the world around you
With respect and dignity
Give your children a better chance
To live long and be happy

Be proud of everything you've done
And what others have helped you do
Show your daughters and your sons
It's made a better man of you

A meaningful hundred years you'll make
In this passionate life you'll live
A hundred meaningful years it'll take
To give all that you long to give

IF You

2010-04-27T02:20:00.000-07:00

If you think you are beaten, you are.

If you think you dare not, you don’t.

If you like to win, but you think you can’t,

It is almost certain you won’t.

If you think you’ll lose, you’re lost,

For out in the world we find,

Success begins with a fellow’s will—

It’s all in the state of mind.

If you think you are outclassed, you are,

You’ve got to think high to rise,

You’ve got to be sure of yourself before

You can never ever win a prize.

Life’s battles don’t always go

To the stronger or faster Woman,

but soon or late the Woman who wins

Is THE WOMAN WHO THINKS HE CAN!

Don't Tell Me You Love Me

2010-04-18T03:51:00.000-07:00

Don't tell me you love me if you are not sincere
For a lie that strong can ruin my life and bring on a new fear.
Fear to be loved, fear to love ever again
It can cause my fragile heart to break, tear and bend.
Think of all in life that will be missed
because of one small broken promise
So, when I put all of my trust deep within you
Please don't tell me you love me, unless you truly do.

Lighting Your Way

2010-04-18T02:53:00.000-07:00

If I was one thing, I'd be a candle
Lighting the way so you can handle
Your life easier without woes
Not having to fight with your foes.
I'd help keep you from stumbling over
Things blocking your path to an open door.
If I light your path, life is easier,
Even strong winds, my light will not deter.
No matter what, I'm here for you
To cheer you up when you are blue.
Do not fret when times get tough,
If things look down or kind of rough.
Just remember, I'm always here,
In your heart, close and near.
I will help you out in every way,
Happiness and love in your heart will stay.
Don't blow me out, that's one request
Unless it's me you do detest.
I do not try to hurt anyone
That isn't good or any fun.
But one day you may leave me behind
You may no longer need my light to shine.
If that day comes, go on your way
And I will hope to see you again one day.
If one day, I don't appear,
Do not worry, do not fear
I may be gone, but in your heart
The light I gave you did not depart.
It will be there forever and a day
To always bring happiness and light your way.
Farewell for now, I'm needed elsewhere
If your path grows dark, in your heart, I'm there.
So I'm really not gone, just not seen,
I would not leave, I'm not that mean.
Only one simple request that I must say,
Please, never forget those who lit your way.

Dreams

2010-04-18T02:29:00.000-07:00

I was thinking of us last night And the times we shared How good we were But now we are apart Yet we still have our Dreams For in our Dreams we are together Holding hands on the beach Talking all night under the silver moon Kissing and holding each other tight Dreams For no matter the distance Or the obstacle I will always belong to you For we are meant for each other not only in reality, but also in our
Dreams

So Long

2010-04-17T21:00:00.000-07:00

You look so peaceful lying there
With your hands folded upon your chest.
You look like you are sleeping
But you are at eternal rest.
So Long For Now.

When someone special passes on
It does not mean they are gone,
Though they are no longer with us
Their memory still lives on.
It hurts so much to lose a friend -
Especially one that is trustworthy and kind.
You will always have a special place in my heart
Forever until the end of time.
I will not say "Good-bye".
This is not the end.
So I will just say, "So long..."
Until we meet again.

ONE LAST WORD

2010-04-12T23:21:00.000-07:00

Sitting in silence,
In the middle of the night,
Not able to sleep,
Because of our stupid fight.

Love now lost,
So much pain,
Its not all about you,
Dont be so vain.

I dont know what to say
My feelings are mixed,
Im wondering if ever,
Things will be fixed.

I was so sad,
As you walked out the door,
Our relationship broken,
But I couldnt take any more.

I didnt want us to end,
I want you to know,
Ill always love you,
But cant let it show.

Its too complicated,
And will always be,
I love you to bits,
But you cant be with me.

I have to tell you,
I believe in fate,
Im waiting for god,
To find my sole mate.

I know Im crazy,
Even insane,
But I believe in this,
And have no shame.

Im so sorry,
Im not right with you,
Now Im saying goodbye,
What else can I do?

NOW I UNDERSTAND

2010-04-12T23:13:00.000-07:00

Now I understand,
the past is where you live.
you don't want to change,
to forget- your memories of him.

now I understand
the songs you loved,
that I sang for you,
kept your love for Him alive
...I just sang the tune.

now I understand
I was your shelter from the storm,
a place to come to get well,
loved, safe and warm.

now I understand,
how little I knew,
I don't want to know, anymore,
it's better to let you go,

PLEASE FORGIVE ME

2010-04-12T22:22:00.000-07:00

You tell me not to feel so sad,
But then I go and cry.
You tell me, “keep your chin up”
But I feel like I could die.

The worst day of my life
Was when I made that choice.
I need to feel you hold me,
I need to hear your voice.

Can you hear me softly calling?
Can you taste my sour tears?
Do you know how much I love you?
Do you know my biggest fears?

I’m afraid you still don’t love me,
I’m afraid you won’t return.
I’m afraid to show my feelings,
I have this inner burn...

The inferno of my sadness,
They are the fires of death.
They burn here deep within me,
And pierce my every breath.

I wish you would stay with me,
Please, don’t go away.
I need to know you love me,
And I need for you to stay.

I’ll love you for eternity,
I’ll love you for all time.
Just stay forever in my arms,
Again... just, please, be mine.

Now I know you’re gone for good,
And never coming back.
Now I see I’ve been replaced,
You haven’t lost your knack.

You always could move on so fast,
It crippled me to see.
You could always turn around,
And walk away from me.

You turned back only once to say,
“I will be back, don’t cry.”
You took away my heart and soul,
And now... I fear I’ll die.

You need to come back to me, dear.
I need to hear you say,
“I told you I’d be back sometime,
I’ve loved you till today.”

WHAT'S LOVE?

2010-04-12T20:59:00.000-07:00

Love is a thing shared by two
Love is what you feel for me and you
Love is precious when its shared
Love is danger when its dared

Love wanders and searches for the one
Love plays and just do it for fun
Love lets you hear love songs to emote
Love lets you make sweet poems & a quote

Love makes the world go around
Love makes us happy if the one we love
is finally found
Love turns the world upside down
Love cheers us never with a frown

Love makes you cry
Love sacrifices and says goodbye
Love has its own reason and time
Love can make someone you love "mine"

Love makes a person kiss
Love makes a person miss
Love is experienced by all
Love conquers when you fall.

Memories

2010-04-12T00:20:00.000-07:00

Memories flowing in my head,Sometimes makes me feel dead.Crushed in the heart, But needs to start,Forgetting the bad times That happened in the past.But some memories don't last.Just pray, that today, The bad memories go away.

This World

2010-04-12T00:06:00.000-07:00

this world we live in may look in order
but if you look again you will find
the world is full of pain,
the pain is all around us
we can't help but inflict it
it can't be avoided,
you hurt for no reason
that's just the way it is
there is no way to eliminate pain
only to embrace it

in your life you only see what you can handle
if you saw any more you'd go insane
true pain is unbearable, you can't live with it.
but pain is needed for some things
that's just the way it is
life without pain is life with out living
life comes and life goes, but
pain is forever, your heart gets torn
out and thrown to the curb even if the person who did it
doesn't know. you feel as though you never want to
feel again. when you feel this way you know how pain works.

Pain is mostly a state of mind
if you can put it behind
you, you can feel whole again.
Like I say the only pain is not knowing what pain is,
cause until then every thing will hurt you more than it should.
when you know true pain the past will not matter
nothing will matter, for then you'll be dead.

PRAYER ANSWERED,

2010-04-11T23:47:00.000-07:00

Everyone is born for someone Not everyone gets to know that someone As the clock ticks by Loneliness stares in the face On my knee I pray Oh GOD; when that someone comes my way Give me the strength and courage to accept That this someone is mine My prayer Answered.

THE COLOUR OF LOVE

2010-04-11T23:38:00.000-07:00

The co lour of love is blue
No, it is Red
There you go again, you are wrong
The co lour of love is pink
Perhaps you are all right, perhaps not
I saw love in the proud mother
As her baby is breast fed
I see love when I behold the cross
Where God gave up his life for me
I saw the co lour of love when I met you
Yes! The co lour of love is ....................................................

I Wish I Was There

2010-04-11T23:02:00.000-07:00

I wish I was there,
To kiss you Goodnight.
I wish I was there,
To hold you so tight.
I wish I was there,
To gaze into your face.
And wonder why angels,
Have come to this place.

I wish I was there,
To talk all night long.
Or sit in the presence,
Of the one that I love.
I wish I was there,
To tell you I care.
I wish I was there,
To tell you,
"You captured my heart"
And "You'll always be there."

we are together

2010-04-11T22:45:00.000-07:00

I sit here watching
the twinkle of the stars,
the full moon in its beauty,
in the cool night breeze;

as the gentle breeze tried to play a lullaby,
my eyes just refused to pay heed,
drowned in thoughts of you,
my mind was as fresh as it can be;

all these times, all those moments,
i can’t believe how i let go
i can’t understand why i didn’t say
what my heart was crying out loud;

I’m always thinking of you
thinking of expressing myself
but my words
when I look at you, when i speak with you
It always ends up to one thing
I just can’t think of
the right words to say;

if only the wind could carry
the unrevealed emotions
that my heart is crying out every night,
i would send it as my messenger right away!

should I tell you
how awful it feels
giving off our time alone
don’t you feel the pain
when your eyes lock with mine?

sometimes life can be deceiving
I’ll tell you one thing
it’s always better when we’re together,
promises, i don't make
of the riches and wealth,
all i have and all that i can
give you is my love
for as long as i am alive
to cement our future
to make our dreams come true!

Until we meet .

2010-04-05T23:53:00.000-07:00

Until we meet
My nights will be a little colder
My days a little shorter
My heart will beat a little less rapid
Until we meet
I know that my arms will be empty
My mind hurting from the constant thought of you
Minutes will seem to be hours
Hours will seem to be months
While months will seem like eternity
Until we meet
The stars in the sky will not affect me
with its gleaming sparkles of life

Until I am gazing at them in your arms
And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing
Until it is you that I share the my food with
And Until we meet
I will not feel whole
My world will seem incomplete
Until that wonderful day
When our eyes make first contact
And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind
The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song
"Hello, my love, I couldn't wait to meet you."

New Life

2010-04-05T23:07:00.000-07:00

I've been sitting around this life for years,
Not enough laughs and too many tears.
Trying to figure out where it all went,
These wasted years that I have spent.

Searching for something to go beyond,
Life's a stone skipping across a pond.
At the last skip, it hits with a splash,
Down the stone sinks, gone in a flash.

Pushing and pulling, it's tearing apart,
Poking and prodding an underused heart.
This dark velvet curtain that hides my soul,
Living this life has taken it's toll.

In a flash of bright light, the curtain is torn,
Tumbling down all tattered and worn.
Revealing new life, a child within,
Born free of hate, of suffering and sin.

Now my eyes see what has never been told,
Striving forth happy, confident and bold.
Into a world that's unfamiliar but friendly,
Into this new life my spirit will send me.

Living and laughing, loving it all,
I stood myself up and answered the call.
The darkness has gone, replaced by the light,
I gave up the darkness with hardly a fight.

I've been sitting around this life for years,
With laughter aplenty and hardly a tear.
Now I can see just where it all went,
Cherish every moment of this new life I've spent.

I Was Reminded

2010-04-04T03:48:00.000-07:00

As we lay there quiet,
I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you.
Your .......,
and the way it teased at me seductively.
Your laugh,
and the way it tempted me.
Your eyes,
and the way they seem to hypnotize me.

As we sat there silent,
I was reminded of all the reasons why I love you.
Your smile,
and the way it brings such life into me.
Your laugh,
and the way it makes everything okay.
Your eyes,
and the way they seem to read my thoughts.

As we stand here now,
I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you.
Your smile,
and the way it confuses me.
Your laugh,
and the way it seems to mock me.
Your eyes,
and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing

NUMB!

2010-04-04T03:27:00.000-07:00

I open my mouth
to scream but nothing comes out
i try to hit the wall
but i cant move
i want to cry
but no tears will form

i fall to the floor
unable to move,
unable to feel and speak
i have no emotion
i lie here
i lie here completely
NUMB!!!

Marriage ?

2010-03-31T03:20:00.000-07:00

Marriage is a great thing.. There are good times and bad times. It does take work to make it work. But if you look up the word LOVE, its an action word. Means you have to work at it. Like Marriage and Love they both take work, some days it easier than others, someday you have to give more than you receive. But what makes a good marriage Great is knowing that at the end of the day your with the one you LOVE!

2010-03-31T03:18:00.000-07:00

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.”

I Wish

2010-03-31T03:02:00.000-07:00

i wish

i need to know whats on his mind
still i failed to say..
i need to know what makes him smile
what makes him want to stay!

and all his dreams i need to see
so i can insert something about me..

i need to know his favorite star
coz i'd wish upon it with all my heart
wishing someday i could be there
to share this night with himer!

they say wishes are for
fools running a few
still I'd take my chances
being a fool with you!

Do you think of me too?

2010-03-30T22:07:00.000-07:00

I think of you
I begin to wonder
Do you think of me too?

I imagine you're next to me,
Pulling me close,
I feel your kiss,
As you caress my skin.

My heart beats fast,
Pounding louder every second,
I begin to tremble,
As I taste your sweet lips.

I find that I gasp for air,
To replace the breath that you just took away.
My body and soul
Are slipping into a heavenly bliss.
Your hands are touching my every inch,
With such ease and tenderness.

I want this moment to last,
Not one second can escape,
I want to stay in your arms,
But then I suddenly awake.

It was only a dream,
Just a desire,
But in reality,
You have set my heart on fire.

"Why Give Up"

2010-03-28T03:41:00.000-07:00

You do know,

That I can never,

Give up for trying,

To make you mine

For you see,

It is not my nature,

For to give up.

For as long,

As I live and breathe,

I will try,

To make you,

Mine one and only sweetheart.

"WHAT IS LOVE"

2010-03-28T03:22:00.000-07:00

What is love,

You are love at it best.

Just looking at you is love,

Thinking about you is love,

Having you by my side, is love,

Being next to you is love,

Being there to help you up, when you fall,

Being there to share your hope and dreams,

Being there to help take your fears away,

All this and more is true love.

Apology

2010-03-28T03:12:00.000-07:00

How do I tell you I'm sorry -
With a gesture, a look, a touch?
How is it I never realized
I hurt you so very much?

I do not ask forgiveness,
A comfort I'll never deserve.
I merely want to let you know,
But I cannot find the nerve.

To finally confront you, face-to-face,
To look you in the eye,
To face your wrath, your apathy -
Too terrified to try.

You called me selfish, I turned away,
I festered and I fled;
Cutting and wounding and lashing out,
Just to see if you bled.

Betraying and deceiving you,
I surely had no right
To snatch away such a precious gem;
A dark thief in the night.

Four years and forever passed
To bring us to this day,
When I present these simple words
I never thought to say.

The time has come, it's long past due,
To put aside my fear;
Would this confession torture you,
Or have you longed to hear?

To hear those two forbidden words,
To vanquish all the pain,
To understand my dearest wish:
To know you once again.

The years aged me remarkably,
Though they have not made me wise;
I do know I erred irrevocably -
For that I apologize.

True..............

2010-03-27T23:40:00.000-07:00

True love, so hard for to find,

That one in a million

Oh why, is it so hard to find.

Why oh why, i do not know.

Then when you find it,

That love so pure and sweet,

That one in a million woman,

For what do you do,

You do not just put one foot,

But both feet you put into your mouth.

For why do you do this,

For maybe it was meant for to be.

Find a GUY

2010-03-27T23:13:00.000-07:00

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, "that's ............................

AS we grow

2010-03-27T22:46:00.000-07:00

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

Nothing Can Compare To You

2010-03-24T04:31:00.000-07:00

The gentle breeze of the air around me, The sound of the ocean slowly rolling, The beauty of the sunset, The feel of the sand as I walk along a beach, Can never compare to you. The sweet smell of a rose, The kiss of the snow as it falls to the ground, The bite of the rain as if falls on me spinning in the street, The love of my family and friends, Can never compare to you. Nothing in this world, Can compare to the way I feel for you.. The way I feel when I'm with you, Nothing can compare to tour embrace, I would give everything... to feel... this love, The love you once had for me, The love that is drifting farther away from me everyday, The love that seems to be my life my world, my dreams, Your love for me... is all I need, Because nothing... can compare to you.

Just You

2010-03-24T04:20:00.000-07:00

Just,You
There are that I can't explain
There is a lot of knowledge to gain
I think about you all the time
Oh how you stay in my mind.

I wish that I could tell you how I feel
There are things that to me appeal
When we hang out it's only for a little wile
I like that you like my smile.

There are things that I wish weren't so
There are many things people don't know
We have a lot in common that's nice
Just one thing that attracted me to you was your eyes.

There is something about you that is different
When I'm around you I get all tingly inside
Maybe it's love but, whatever it

Wrong

2010-03-24T03:58:00.000-07:00

She is sitting on her bed,contemplating everything you ever said,She's starring at the light from her CD player that lights up red,wondering whatever went wrong.Then It hits her it hits her hard.Nothing ever did.Because it was wrong from the beginning.Giving her heart..the only thing she had left..after every fight,she gave it to him..only to have it stabbed with a knife,now the pain of a first love is neverending.She's crying now thinking on what to do next,her head tells her to let it go..just over look it.But she can't the pain is to much.Ever since she was little she never really had anyone..to love her,to really comfort her she thought she found it but she was wrong.

I Tried

2010-03-24T02:19:00.000-07:00

I tried not to let you see, Just how much you meant to me. I tried not to let you in, But somehow you always win. Now I'm trying not to fall apart, Not so easy to do on a broken heart. I tried not to care, But that was impossible with you always there I tried not to fall in love with you, But how, I had No clue. Now I'm trying not to fall apart, But you've stolen every splintered piece of my heart. I wasn't ready to say goodbye, Why did you believe in all the lies? Now she's the one you adore, Leaving me crushed to the core. And I'm trying not to fall apart, Not so easy to do on a broken heart.

What Would You Do?

2010-03-14T23:14:00.000-07:00

What would you do if someone you love
Doesn't love you?
What would you do if you think he's the one,
But gave his ex a son?

What would you do if he promised
Not to do it again?
What would you do if he kissed
Your best friend?
What would you do if he made you his wife
And controlled your whole life?

What would you do if you told him how you felt,
And he walked away without a doubt?
What would you do if he said he didn't care,
And that life is unfair?
What would you do if he made you cry
And there was nobody to dry your eyes?

What would you do if he treats you like nothing
And when you say you're going to leave,
He treats you like something?
What would you do if he gave you his heart and just took yours?
What would you do if he locked your heart up
And you couldn't find the key?

What would you do if your friends said your life was on the line
And he said everything was fine?
What would you do if he gave you so much stress?
Would you break down and confess?
What would you do?

Do YOU ?

2010-03-14T22:53:00.000-07:00

Do you love me for my personality?
or do you love me for my beauty?

Do you love me for my joyfullness?
or do you love me for my social status?

Do you care for my feelings?
or are you just playing?

Do you miss me when i'm gone?
or are you off with another one?

Do you care when i cry?
or will you just deny?

Do you ever plan to tell me that you love me?
or do you think i'm just a toy?

Do you even know where i am in life?
or do you think i'm happy-dooodle-dandy?

Do you even know i'm dead?
or do you think i just disappeared?

Have You Ever? Well I Have.

2010-03-14T22:41:00.000-07:00

Have You Ever?
Have you ever been told what to do with your life and you can't take it any more and you just want to give up but you’re scared?
Well I have.
Have you ever wondered what it would be like if you can go back a change the things you have done and hope that it wouldn't be like it is now?
I have.
Have you ever been told to go to counseling and then you do but i doesn't really help but then you still go to counseling just to make the person who put you in happy?
Well I have.
Have you ever wondered what life would be like with that person you have lost in your life and said to your self things would be different if that person was still here?
I have.
Have you ever pondered what it would be like if you were to grow old by your self and then you got scared to grow old by your self?
Well I have.
Have you ever felt love but it turned out that it couldn't be because you’re the one who is a mess and it couldn't happen?
I have.
Have you ever remembered only the bad in your past and it haunts you and you'll never forget?
Well I have and still do.

what I have to say

2010-03-14T22:34:00.000-07:00

What I have to say is straight from the heart,
You may not have known it yet,
But i have loved you from the start,
From the moment our eyes first met,
I wanted to get to know you,
Please believe everything I say,
These feelings are so true,
I hope you feel the same way,
It’s time to make it official,
Let’s be together,
I don’t know how far we’ll go,
But I hope it last forever.

Dreamer

2010-03-14T21:36:00.000-07:00

Just when you came along,
I’ve been a dreamer
from that day and now on.

Everyday, i kept on thinking. . .
if you would ever think of me. .
though i know it cant be

Every time i began to think of this,
I just stop though it hurts me.
You and me would never be.
Like a fairytale with an ending so happy.

But even just this last time,
Let me be a dreamer .
whose thinking, .
about you and me holding our
hands together and free.

Coz in dreams,
is where i could only be free .
a dreamer . .
who hopes . .
you’ll notice the way i feel.

love & Pain

2010-03-14T21:29:00.000-07:00

Love
You really think you need it?

You don’t.
Because after every time you are happy,
there are times you are sad
And everytime you think everything will be good,
you know it wont
Because there is always a time you know,
nothing will be okay
Because whenever you love somebody,
you will get hurt,
Every single time.

No matter how often you think,
this time it´ll be different ,
It will always be the same pain

Go with a smile .

2010-03-09T22:47:00.000-08:00

How do you walk away from someone you love
And take the road of friend;
Can you reroute the course you have taken
And start over once again?

I don't really want to let you go
But inside me I know I must;
The times we've loved . . . the times you've left
My heart says stay . . . but it's my mind I must trust.

We have shared so much together
Laughter . . . fun times . . . tears;
Yet sometimes we can't turn back time
We must walk away, and allow ourselves to heal.

I know one day you will be happy
And your soul mate you will find;
I know we each have one out there
Even if for now . . . only in our minds.

May life be gentle with you
May God's best come your way;
And on some quiet tomorrow
You will realize things were better this way.

Everything

2010-03-09T21:57:00.000-08:00

Every new beginning,
comes from some beginnings end.

Every time you kill me,
I am born again.

Every time you close that door,
Another door is opened.

And every time you say goodbye, a different word is spoken. Every time you look at me my back is facing you, And every time you ask to see me I'll have something else to do. Every time I join your game, You're not playing fair, And every time I really love you, I pretend that I don't care.

Unending Love

2010-03-09T20:21:00.000-08:00

I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times…
In life after life, in age after age, forever.
My spellbound heart has made and remade the necklace of songs,
That you take as a gift, wear round your neck in your many forms,
In life after life, in age after age, forever.

Whenever I hear old chronicles of love, it's age old pain,
It's ancient tale of being apart or together.
As I stare on and on into the past, in the end you emerge,
Clad in the light of a pole-star, piercing the darkness of time.
You become an image of what is remembered forever.

You and I have floated here on the stream that brings from the fount.
At the heart of time, love of one for another.
We have played along side millions of lovers,
Shared in the same shy sweetness of meeting,
the distressful tears of farewell,
Old love but in shapes that renew and renew forever.

MELT AWAY

2010-03-07T23:39:00.000-08:00

Can I fade in your arms?
Can I get lost in your eyes?
'Cause when I'm with you
I just melt away

Can I render you still?
Freeze this moment in time?
'Cause when I see you
I just melt away

Can I stay close to you
Until the river runs dry?
'Cause when you're heart is by mine
I just melt away

COULD IT BE?

2010-03-07T21:06:00.000-08:00

Could it be that I once saw you
In a dream as old as time
And could it be the arms holding you
Were really mine the whole time?

Could you have been my one and only
The reason I woke each new day
The one thing I always needed
The one for whom I use to pray?

Could it be that I had found you
After looking my entire life
Could it be that I had promised
That one day I'd be your wife?

Could it be that I still love you
And once again I'll find
That you're not just a memory
Only to be viewed in my mind?

Could it be, oh Lord I pray,
Just one thing I ask of you
If you're out there waiting
You'll try to find me too?

the Way I love you

2010-03-07T20:56:00.000-08:00

I never really know how you feel
I can't read your mind
I just keep waiting ...

Take me to your heart
Show me where to start
Let me play the part of your first love.

Oh, I know down deep you love me
But are you ever gonna love me
The way I love you?

New Day .

2010-03-04T00:42:00.000-08:00

If I can endure for this moment,
whatever is happening to me.
No matter how heavy my heart,
or how dark the moment may be.
If I can but keep on believing,
what I know in my heart to be true.
Then darkness will fade into morning,
and with this dawn a new day, too.

Just waNNa be with you

2010-03-03T21:27:00.000-08:00

i wish you were here
standing next to me
in this rain soaked night,
holding hands, scheming of things pretty;

Wondering to myself, so late at night,
what is it that attracts me to you?
Thinking to myself, why are you always on my mind?
What power do you have in what you do?

thinking about where i stood,
i try to push you out of my mind,
but every time i push you out of my thoughts,
you crawl back into my world and fill my senses;

it’s so hard to keep smiling
and continue denying what i feel
i don’t know why,
a thousand reasons i have none;

i can’t go on like this,
i can’t pretend everything is fine,
when i just wanna be with you
hold you tight tonight and every night;

I’ll Never Ever Trust .........

2010-03-03T21:09:00.000-08:00

You know exactly how I feel about others
You know that I’m reluctant to trust people,
Coz I fear them cheat me

You know I expect 100% trustworthiness from the person that I trust.
You knew each and everything about me,
Because I trust you, and you asked me to trust you.

You are a person who always likes to stay happily
Your happiness is different from my happiness
I have seen many things you do,
Why you do those because that brings you happiness
You wont do anything to bring sorrow..!

Your little happy moments brought me pain and sorrow.
But I need to bare that because you are happy
I never spoke about it,
I never let you know that I know everything that you do.
I never put restrictions,
I never command you,
I never gave any orders.
I let you to live the way you like
Coz everyone likes to live in his or her own style

I stayed by your side everyday,
I came with you everyday to your doorstep to make you feel safe and cared
I have no words to say that I love you everyday,
As you do always
But one thing that I can assure, that is I’m not lying.

From the very first meeting I started to suffer
I bared every pain, even though I knew that I have been cheated
Each an every time that you cheat me,
I thought, Oh this may be the last time that she is cheating me
But my count is endless

You stole me happiness, peaceful mind, my dreams, my hopes, my sleep. etc
You may be sleeping nicely every night
I do the opposite of that every time

Do you know how would a person feel
If he knows that his very trustworthy person has cheated him
Do anyone treat you lovingly when they know you have been cheated them
Do anyone keep trust you
Does anyone can trust them again

I have lost my sleep,
Coz since the morning till the night what I experience is cheating,
I suddenly wake up at night with fear
And I cannot remember how many days I slept peacefully since I met you
Morning to night how many lies that you tell me
I believe every your words, coz I love you

How can I think you are lying me
Coz you are the one and only one
Who knows my every secret, the only one whom that I trust
How can I believe that one and only my trustworthy person is lying
If this is so how can I ever believe another
I’ll never ever trust a person again

Some Days

2010-03-03T20:56:00.000-08:00

some days i want to live
some days i wish it’s over
some days i long to see
some days i wait to die;

some days i think i am fine
some days i believe i have a problem
some days i am strong
some days i am weak;

some days i am closer to truth
some days it seems far far away
some days i think i understand
some days i am just lost;

some days i just wish
everything would disappear
some days i just hope
you could be near;

some days i have a feeling
one day everything
will be alright
and that day is closer
than ever;

I am geTTing tiREd

2010-03-03T20:20:00.000-08:00

i am getting tired
of starting afresh
each time
somewhere new;

to you everything was
just a game,
it’s easy to say
i was a fool;

helpless, pretending,
hoping someone would see
i guess i fell straight
into the trap;

i wonder what it feels like
to find the one in this life,
the one we all dream of,
but dreams are’nt just enough;

confused about my very existence
just knowing certain things
will never change for us at all
i did my best to keep going;

tonight, out in the moonlight,
me standing here under the stars,
looking for a diamond in the rough
never knowing when it will show up,
i am ready now;

in the darkness of my mind
as i get ready to breathe my last
i’ve got a confession to make,
loving you was a mistake;

you gave me something
that i didn’t have,
but in my heart you don’t exist anymore
as my mind decides between life and death,
tempting fate and
dancing with destiny,
i am swallowed up in the
sound of my screaming;

Good Bye _ _ _ _ :)

2010-02-27T21:37:00.000-08:00

A thought we shared
A life we lived
A love we had together

Good times
Bad times
Nothing lasts forever

A broken heart
A tear I shed
Love can have much pain

For knowing you
For loving you
So much I have gained

Good-bye
It's over but always remember
I had loved you so very much

once thought

2010-02-27T21:17:00.000-08:00

I had once thought
that maybe this was life.
No love, no hate, no feelings.
My deepest feelings would never be shared.
I was so frightened,
I didn't know what to do.
Scared of this one man all my life.
Face my fear, I told myself!
But it's so hard, so confusing.
Do you know what it's like
to wonder in darkness?
It never stops, never ends.
It goes on like a story with no ending.
Do you know how it feels
to be afraid of something
that you can't do anything about?
That you didn't ask for or even think about?
Do you know what it's like? Do you know how it feels?
It's complete and pure emptiness.

When i have a bad day

2010-02-27T21:02:00.000-08:00

When i have a bad day , kneel by my bedside and pray.
and tell GOD what i have done wrong .
but he never make me the bad one.
I feel like a warm glow enters the room
as he answer yes , your evil will fly away.
Then i can climb into my bed knowing that the next morning it all come clear.
Thats my life will never be the same
Knowing that GOD helping me along.

Hurting Me

2010-02-25T03:36:00.000-08:00

Even though we are no longer together.
And I no longer consider you as my lover.
My feelings mixed and mind confused.
My body feels misused and abused.
I can't let you go even though I want to.
My thoughts are always consumed with you.
I try to move on but always lose interest.
Because of the feelings that I can't put to rest.
How can I still want you after what you did.
Why is your voice still ringing in my head.
Will I ever be able to forget.
All the time together we spent.
I just want these feelings to go away.
Somehow I know that forever in my heart they'll stay.
Even though I pretend that nothing is wrong and hide behind a smile.
Inside I am crying like a newborn child.
When I am alone sometimes I call out your name.
But the response I get is always the same.
A response filled with silence that adds to my pain.
All I really want is for you to love me again.
Maybe I am just to dumb or too blind to see.
That you will forever be still hurting me

Hold ME Close

2010-02-25T03:17:00.000-08:00

Hold me close and don’t let go;
I'm so scared to be alone.
I've been by myself for too long,
And always had to be strong.
Now I only want to rest;
And lay my head on your chest.
Hold me close and don’t let go;
These wars I fight no one knows.
Now whisper how you love me,
Say it tender and softly.
I am weary and soon will sleep,
But with you no longer will I weep.
So hold me close and don't let go,
For I never want to be alone.

I don’t know

2010-02-23T04:30:00.000-08:00

I don’t know if You and I is right
I can’t say it would never end
I don’t care if it looks okay
I can’t measure the feelings we share
I don’t know the times we’d share
I can’t predict our future
I don’t know the places we’d see
I can’t project our opportunities
I don’t the count of our seed
I can’t how many sacrifices we’d make
I don’t know how we’d look when old
There are many unknowns
But, I would jump off a cliff
And hope I can fly
Cos I believe in what I feel for you

While I was sleeping

2010-02-23T02:49:00.000-08:00

While I was sleeping

While I was sleeping
Someone else took you away
And I woke up and had to face
A strange, but real and lonely day.

How can it be that I have loved you,
But you did not realise?
Now you belong to someone else
And live in paradise.

While I am banished,
Left with the tragedy
Of love, so pure and simple
But that can never come to be.

Life is a mess
And made me become a fool.
While I was sleeping, suddenly,
I lost you, mean and cruel.

I'm really very sorry.

2010-02-23T02:28:00.000-08:00

It's so hard to find
the right words to say
when somebody you care is
hurting...

More so, when you know
that you could be one of
the causes of the other person's
pain and anguish...

There just aren't enough words
to describe the feelings
I want to share,
I didn't mean to frighten you
with my intensity but I guess,
I did, I know what has happened
is inexcusable and it would be
too much to expect that
you would forgive me.

What scares me the most
is the thought that
you might want to give up or me...

Please don't...
I'm really very sorry.

f I Had One Chance

2010-02-22T23:21:00.000-08:00

LOOKING BACK ON THE MANY OBSTACLES IN LIFE, SOME THINGS I JUST DIDN'T DO RIGHT IN AND OUT OF TROUBLE, THAT'S HOW THINGS WENT, THAT WAS MY LIFE NEVER HOLDING ON TO ANYTHING, IN FACT, I THOUGHT MY LIFE WAS IN TACT DIDN'T SEEM AS IF ANYTHING WAS WRONG, WHEN ONE SITUATION CAME I HANDLED IT COULDN'T FIGURE OUT WHY I HAD SO MANY UNTIL THAT ONE NIGHT I HEARD MY MOM CRYING SHE WAS PRAYING FOR ME, HER SON, AND EVERYTHING SHE WAS PRAYING FOR DIDN'T SOUND LIKE ME, UNTIL... SHE SPOKE ON ONE THING, IN WHICH TOOK ME BACK TO ONE OF THE HARDEST TIMES IN MY LIFE FILLED WITH STRIFE, MISERY, PAIN AND ALL OUT NOTHING TO GAIN RESPECT WASN'T WORTH IT, WORRIES IN MY MOM'S LIFE JUST DIDN'T FIT SHE CONTINUED, EYES FILLED WITH GRIEF, HER LAST PRAY, FOR GOD TO TURN ME MOM IS NO MORE, AND I SIT IN A PLACE WHERE ELECTRICAL FENCES SEPARATE ME FROM THE OUTSIDE WORLD IF I COULD GIVE ANYTHING TO BRING THE ONE WOMAN WHO TRULY LOVED ME, BACK TO A PLACE WHERE SHE IS NEEDED MY LIFE I WOULD LIE DOWN, AND TRADE IN SO THE WORLD COULD SEE HER SMILING FACE AGAIN

God pls ..........

2010-02-22T21:39:00.000-08:00

I was once told that as time goes by Everything changes with no reason why Explanations we won't receive We're just told we must believe The GOD has a plan for each of us This I Believe - This I Trust Doctor - Lawyer - Teacher - Wife GOD what's your plan for my life? Explanations I don't expect Just some guidance down the right track Show me GOD your plan for me I ask this of you while on my knees Praying to you helps me to see The wonderful plan you have for me The GOD has a plan for each of us This I Believe - This I Trust

Some Day

2010-02-21T02:53:00.000-08:00

some days i want to live
some days i wish it’s over
some days i long to see
some days i wait to die;

some days i think i am fine
some days i believe i have a problem
some days i am strong
some days i am weak;

some days i am closer to truth
some days it seems far far away
some days i think i understand
some days i am just lost;

some days i just wish
everything would disappear
some days i just hope
you could be near;

some days i have a feeling
one day everything
will be alright
and that day is closer
than ever;

Make my wish come true

2010-02-21T01:11:00.000-08:00

searching for answers
that evaded me for so long,
i got lost in a maze of treachery
hidden under a mask of innocence;

it’s been so long
words kept me awake
all night long, making
me restless and confused;

drowning in the wishes
of a long lost past,
i let my life down,
i let myself down;

in the midst of the night
under the velvet skies
i surrendered to life
i whisper for forgiveness;

so with a smile on my lips
and a wish on my heart
i give faith(hope) one more reason
i give life another chance
to make my wish come true

Teardrops

2010-02-20T22:43:00.000-08:00

a thousand tears i cried
over the last few days
what was once a dry(gentle) riverbed
transformed into a wild river overnight
with each passing moment
and each passing hour
with the clock slowly ticking away
the tears just continue unabated
a thousand gallons of teardrop
gently caress the feet of those nearby
yet no one moved an inch
a teardrop a second
slowly squeezing the life out of me
slowly putting an end to this wretched existence
a river that was once dormant (gentle)
now surges on
inside me
a river of teardrops

FAte

2010-02-20T20:23:00.000-08:00

It seems or so people say,
the moment we are born
our fate is already etched
on to our foreheads

how i wish mine was a different one,
i could then do all that i wanted,
the way i want to, carefree
and not bound by any restrictions;

how i wish you could stay with me,
spend our time together without a care
not worrying when you will be taken away
and hidden from us all;

moment when you left, still visible
in my eyes, those sweet, laughter filled
eyes turning into a ravaging floods, once
the realization set in;

unable to stop you, unable to do much
beyond waving goodbye,
standing amidst a sea of gloom
we bid you farewell, hoping the next time
is much longer than this time;

Different"

2010-02-20T19:54:00.000-08:00

How are we so "different"?
If "different" is just a thing.
If we all have certain features,
What does "different" bring?

People filled with hatred,
Can't possibly see,
That there's not really "differences"
Between you and me.

Looks can't show "difference",
If they're just there to be seen.
If you don't look like someone else,
Why are they so mean?

If being "different" is what is wrong,
I'd rather not be right.
And I'd want to finish living,
Doing the "different" fight.

FrusTraTed

2010-02-16T03:24:00.000-08:00

Angry and frustrated at times.
Feeling like the inside of me, is no longer alive.
Trying to reach out and make a connection.
In return, getting no love or affection.
No longer wanting to go on.
We've lost that special bond.

The love we had is no longer there.
It's to the point that I really don't care.
I need some love and attention.
Among other things, I just won't mention.
Wanting someone to be here for me.
I guess it may never be.

What You Really Are

2010-02-15T22:56:00.000-08:00

You hurt me once, you'll hurt me again.
But what am I supposed to do until then?
Why do you keep coming in my life,
right after I get over you?
There's just that one thing about you
I just don't understand.
Why do you do this to me?
Why do I let you hurt me over and over?
Why can I not resist you?

I keep thinking maybe this time it will be different,
but you never come through like I want you to.
I want to get totally over,
but I can't when you keep doing this to me.
I hope this stops,
cause I don't think I can take it any longer.
What draws you to me?
Why can't I not see what you really are?

Black Rose

2010-02-15T22:54:00.000-08:00

Like a rose,
Love is beautiful
When it is alive.

Blooming,
Bright,
Filling the air
With a sweet fragrance,
As it spreads its petals.

But when it dies,
It dries,
Becoming brittle,
Eventually turning black
And falling apart.

GeTTing Over

2010-02-15T22:44:00.000-08:00

Another day had pass,
my feelings are still the same.
It has been a while,
since I've said your sweet name.

Why is it like this?
What did I do wrong?
When will these feelings end?
I've waited far too long.

My thoughts are fading,
the answers I can't find.
Oh! how can I get,
you out of my mind?

The words are running out,
there's nothing else to do.
But to wait and to hope,
that I'll get over you.

Can my heart move on,
without another tear?
Will my emotions heal,
if you come near.

If these feelings die,
as it flows to the stream.
Will I ever wake up,
from this endless dream?

Needing

2010-02-15T22:33:00.000-08:00

My heart cries for you.
It's all I hear day and night.
It haunts me crying,
Crying for you and your love.

These empty arms crying out,
Wanting, needing to embrace you,
To make physical contact,
To hold you close to my heart.

The need for you consuming me,
Over shadowing everything,
Reaching out for you,
Crying out for you.

Touching empty air.
Sinking down in despair.
Wanting, needing,
Reaching, crying.

Loving you so, needing you so,
Dying a little each day.
The need is so great.
The pain so strong.

The emptiness inside so great,
So dark, so lonely.
Just a big void,
Waiting for your love.

Needing the warmth
That your love surrounds me in,
Aching for the rays of your sunshine,
That your love brings into my life.

Needing, wanting,
Reaching, crying,
Always for you,
My love, my life.

The End

2010-02-10T02:17:00.000-08:00

Sad
When someone loves me, and I don’t love them.
Happy
When someone loves me, and I love them too.
Mad
When someone loves me, and I love the guy over there.
Confused
When someone loves me, and I SAID I love them, but then I stop loving them.
The End
When someone loves me, and I love them back, and I don’t stop loving them. Even after I die.

Life

2010-02-09T21:15:00.000-08:00

Life is like an old house; it gets used,
worn-out and old.
Then it’s time to move to another.
Life is just a place where your soul lives while it’s on earth.
When your soul gets tired of living on earth it finds a new home.
As time goes by, so does your Life.
So live life to the fullest, and don’t let a day go by without cherishing it.

Standing Alone

2010-02-09T20:47:00.000-08:00

I can see the flower upon which my life grows, blooming into a rose.

See the hope and courage in the strength of the petals.
As long as I am, I will be.
The flower will never wilt or die.
As my life grows back, I shall become strong.
I shall become only dependent on one.
That one will be me.
I will rise with my petals high.
My life as a flower will bloom and prosper as I grow.
I may not be the pick of the patch, but I am just as beautiful as the rest.

I will stand as one, but not a lonely soul.
The tears will be far from my smile.

Rose Without You

2010-02-08T20:05:00.000-08:00

With this rose, I not only give you merely a rose,
but I give you my heart and soul.
I send to you all the love I have to give,
and anything else that would give me the
chance to touch your heart.
 
With this rose, I reveal all my
thoughts and feelings about you
that I have withheld for so long.
I feel when I am with you... I am like a rose,
not because of it?s beauty,
but because I am able to bloom and grow with you.
 
To me you are like a rose's sunshine,
so full of energy and light,
that never does it fail to lift my spirits.
Just by the sound of your voice and that look in your eye.

I could never tear my eyes from you,
you are able to make my life worth living.
But, without you, just like a rose,
I would wither and die.
Not all at once, but little by little,
petal by petal.

Slowly at first, because you have made me
stronger and stronger each day you're with me.
But eventually, without you, I will loose
all those beautiful petals you have given me.

WhAt LoVe Is

2010-02-08T00:43:00.000-08:00

It is Love that gives me purpose
to change and grow and learn.
It is Love that guides me on this path
and helps me choose each turn.

It is Love that gives me courage
to stand against my fears;
to open up my heart to you,
to let you see my tears.

It is Love that gives me trust and hope
when little thing go wrong.
When distance stands between us,
it is Love that keeps me strong.

It is Love that offers harmony
and a friendship that is true.
How wonderful that I can share
a Love like this with you!

I cry WHY ?

2010-02-07T22:07:00.000-08:00

Sometimes we argue, I don't know why.
Then I sit and wonder, why do I cry?

I cry because ..........,
I cry because I care,
I cry because I feel we have a love so rare,
sometimes I'm afraid I'll turn around and you won't be there.

I love you every minute,
I love you every day,
I even love you when we argue,
I love you when we play.

Sometimes I've wondered do you love me too,
then I look in your eyes and
I know it's true.
So when I say something a little crazy
or I do something you don't feel is right,
Please, let's try to work it out so we won't fight.

Some people take relationships for granted
it's sad to hear but true,
I don't want this to happen, not with you.
I want our relationship to be completely from the heart
so we both know, no matter what we go through we will never part.

WILL YOU?

2010-02-07T21:25:00.000-08:00

If I will only let
this moment pass away
the chance to have you
will fly and will not stay.

Where will i be now?
If you won't be here
Will you let this tears
wash the happiness
of the past?

Will you still love me
if I tell you
that I will love you
more than you do?

will you hate me
if I wont ever let you go
It's so hard
Please tell me will you?

LEavE

2010-02-07T21:03:00.000-08:00

What would I do if you leave?
I'd miss you, I believe
That's what I'd do if you leave
Emotions are kept under my sleeve
So my prayers to you I'd give

Please stay a bit longer
For I may see you again never
And you leaving isn't for the better
Surely I'd miss you sooner or later

Everyday I miss you more and more
It makes my heart feel so sore
Thinking of the way things were,
I'd like to go back
to the times we had before.

I giVe my hEaRt.

2010-02-07T20:09:00.000-08:00

You're the first thing I think of
Each morning when I rise.
You're the last thing I think of
Each night when I close my eyes.

You're in each thought I have
And every breath I take.
My feelings are growing stronger
With every move I make.

I want to prove I love you
But that's the hardest part.
So, I'm giving all I have to give
To you... I give my heart.

leSSonS

2010-02-07T03:10:00.000-08:00

I've learned a lot of lessons
In the short time I have lived
I've learned how to appreciate
And I've learned how to give.

But in these past few months
There's two I'll remember most
I've learned how to love
And I've learned to let go.

You entered my life with such a force
And left it with one as strong
And though we tried to make it last
We both knew it wouldn't be long.

I lie at night and think about
How I'm the one to blame.
If only I would have trusted you,
I could have missed this pain.

And so I spent each day of my life
With my heart in pieces
And when I thought it could never be cured,
Something happened; I expected it least.

I guess my soul was all cried out,
And it was tired of being used.
And even though I know I'm guilty,
I was tired of being accused.

And so I've learned to end this
Without an urge to cry
These are my final words to you,
"I love you and goodbye."

Touch Yourself And You Touch Me

2010-02-07T01:57:00.000-08:00

I understand the why
Yet I cannot grasp the how;
But if this is the way you must handle us
I will try to understand somehow.

There is one thing that I ask
As you walk away;
Please create a corner in your heart for me
So at least, there, I can always stay.

You will always be my love
That will never change;
Though we are going separate ways
That fact remains the same.

I know we must let each other go
Circumstances force us to set each other free;
But today, I give back to you . . . your words -
Touch Yourself and You Touch Me.

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2010-02-07T01:50:00.000-08:00

I am weak now having attempted to cry out all feelings and emotions for you: In one breath you make me smile and cry in one phone call you lift my spirits and plunge me into depression Your voice can build up my hopes and shatter my dreams. You leave me wondering, yet disenchanted. How you do it, I'll never know. And that you do it, I'll never breathe a clue. At least not to you.

In And Out Of LOVE.

2010-02-07T01:46:00.000-08:00

When I say I love you I do But this with you will not do I need someone I can lean on Someone I can count on too Yes you are there sometimes For that I am grateful to you But I need someone there full time And that you can not do You told me once you loved me That I could believe in you I was there when you needed someone Where were you when I needed someone, too? The time has come for me to let go Never to expect you to care again People may come and people may go But my love will never end

Making Love To A ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

2010-02-06T23:35:00.000-08:00

You were always so perfect to me,
so soft and gentle,
cherishing you instantly,
without a second glance,
I never distrusted those eyes,
that lied to me continuously,
I promised you I'd always try,
but slowly you were losing me.

I would always have given you anything,
just to keep your interest,
stopping my heart from remembering,
all the pain you caused,
I never pulled away from that kiss,
that held a painful hint of truth,
Maybe you'd be too hard to miss,
so I said I was still in love with you.

I wanted more than just the infatuation,
that you found in me.
You said love was only a distraction,
that you really didn't need,
so I cried myself to sleep,
knowing the times we shared must end.
You couldn't let emotion run deep,
you said you made love to me, as a ...........

But eventually, my love,
fade, too,
and I can't make love and walk away,
pretending I don't love you.
Never once did I push you away,
but everything comes to end,
so all that's left to say,
is goodbye,

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